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Anxiety :(

Yes, I know. Anxiety is a part of life and I should be used to it by now, but sometimes it's just so hard to deal with! The thing that is causing me so much anxiety...Vacation. Yes, the thing that is meant to calm you down is just causing me to have panic attacks! I know it's silly, but I really can't help it. It's just the way I feel. I really want to go, but every time I think about it, I have a panic attack and I really want to back out. Emetophobia is the main reason I really don't want to go. What if I get sick? What if someone else gets sick? That is literally all my mind thinks about every time we go on vacation. It's really a never ending cycle with this phobia. You're scared of your own body and there's no way to get away from it. I hope I can get through it and I hope I don't back out at the last minute, but I have to admit that I am terrified about this! :(

Well, for right now, I am going to try to stay positive and if I decide to go, there will definitely be a lot of pictures that I would love to share with y'all! :)


(P.S. I finished summer school today and my final grade...80%! So, that definitely makes me feel a lot better. I'm officially done with summer school!)



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