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I'm sorry...that I'm not sorry.



   I'm guess I'm going to be blunt about this. I try my very best not to be annoying. I really do! Of course, my anxiety tells me that no matter what I do, I'll always be annoying and you know what that just might be true! I mean, I know that I can be annoying sometimes ( if not all the time) but I going to be honest...at this point, I really don't care. I know I post a lot about being single and about my future husband on Facebook, but that's because I'm really self-conscious about not having a boyfriend right now. However, when I post something funny about not having a boyfriend or something about my future husband...I'm not trying to be annoying...Really, I'm not! I'm just trying to stay positive about the whole thing. Seeing all of my friends that are the same age as me and all of their selfies with their boyfriend/girlfriend just makes me feel left out. Don't get me wrong, though, I'm really happy for them! I just wish I had some sort of dating experience at this point in my life. Although, I want a serious relationship. I don't want to date just "anyone". I want to date someone who is potentially husband material. Look, I'm not trying to creep out the next boy I date when I write that. I'm just being COMPLETELY honest! I also don't want them to go through my Facebook page and think I'm desperate. Trust me, if I was desperate, I would be dating some of the most horrible guys that I met on dating websites! I don't like to judge, but I was asked a lot of inappropriate questions on all sorts of dating websites so I didn't need to know the guy personally to know that he just wanted me for one thing! I just want  people to understand that I'm trying to stay positive and actually enjoy being single while I still am. I'm not trying to annoy anyone or seem desperate. I hope that you guys understand where I'm coming from! Anyway, I know that was just a LOT of rambling, but I just really felt the need to rant about the situation that I'm in right now. I'm glad y'all are here to listen! 

Lots of Love,
Meagan :) 

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