The Peachy Magnolia

School has started back and so far I've got nothing but A's and B's! I, also, have very strong feeling that I've found what I want to do as a career. My plan is to attend college and get a degree in business administration. I'm hoping from there that I can start my own business of some kind...maybe a bakery or something like that. This is the one idea that I've been the most comfortable with! So, please, wish me luck as I continue on my journey with school and life! I hate to end this post so early, but unfortunately I'm not feeling too well today. :( However, I'm really hoping that I can start posting more often and for you guys to get to know me better! So, if you have any appropriate questions for me like what my favorite color or food is, just comment your question and I will be happy to answer them!

For the past 3 years, I've been thinking about the same characters, setting, and plot for a story. I have started it over and over again, but I never felt like it was good enough so I gave up on it. Well, a couple days ago I decided to give it another try and I finally feel comfortable with it. I plan on finishing this story and (hopefully) getting it published. That is my goal for this year! Even though there's no guarantee that I'll get it published, it will be a great start just to get it finished. Okay, guys, wish me luck!

I haven't posted in a while because, you know, life lol. It's been a hectic couple of weeks. My anxiety has been somewhat under control while my depression has been really difficult to deal with lately. It's weird because usually it's the other way around. However, today has been the best day so far. Maybe I just needed to get some rest? I guess it doesn't at matter as long as I'm able to function throughout the day!  So, I've been doing things that I never thought I would be doing. First of all, I've been tweeting like crazy! I've tweeted to all of my favorite celebrities without going into a complete panic attack! I always told myself that I would never use Twitter because of my anxiety so I was going to delete it, but now I am so glad that I didn't. It's definitely helped me conquer my fear! Not only that, but I also went to a pool party with the church youth on Wednesday night and I had a ton of fun. Well, I never got in the pool most...

Florida was absolutely fantastic! The condo was nice and and it was so much fun to go swimming everyday! I got a fantastic tan and, unfortunately, a horrible sunburn, but that didn't ruin the fun! One day we went to the beach and I found 73 seashells. I think I've started a new collection!  I would love to collect as many seashells as I can from each beach I go to and keep them all in a little labeled bottle. That is definitely on my bucket list now! So, yes, I did have a lot of fun and I would love to back sometime soon! I hope you enjoyed reading about my vacation and I, also, hope that if anxiety is holding you back from doing something, please don't let it! Sure things might not go as planned, but that's how life is and anxiety won't change the outcome either way.  Lots of Love, Meagan :)

I have to say I am so glad that I did not let my anxiety control me and I was able to make it out the door yesterday morning without having a panic attack! I am having a great time so far   and we are only on day 2! I have my own room and bathroom.(Well, I have my own room at home but I do not have my own bathroom.) The balcony is great because we can see the ocean from it and its absolutely beautiful! I mean, just look at this scenery.      Beautiful, isn't it? :) My posts will, unfortunately, be shorter because I am posting from my tablet and it is extremely difficult to do! So, I will have to end it here. :( Don't worry though because once I get home and back to my computer, I will post more pics and give more details! Thanks for being patient!  Lots of Love, Meagan :)

Yes, I know. Anxiety is a part of life and I should be used to it by now, but sometimes it's just so hard to deal with! The thing that is causing me so much anxiety...Vacation. Yes, the thing that is meant to calm you down is just causing me to have panic attacks! I know it's silly, but I really can't help it. It's just the way I feel. I really want to go, but every time I think about it, I have a panic attack and I really want to back out. Emetophobia is the main reason I really don't want to go. What if I get sick? What if someone else gets sick? That is literally all my mind thinks about every time we go on vacation. It's really a never ending cycle with this phobia. You're scared of your own body and there's no way to get away from it. I hope I can get through it and I hope I don't back out at the last minute, but I have to admit that I am terrified about this! :( Well, for right now, I am going to try to stay positive and if I decide to go, th...

Fourth of July has been a success so far! We had a delicious buffet of food (hot dogs, pasta salad, baked beans, and cupcakes for dessert!) and now we're about to get ready so we can go and shoot some fireworks. I'll try to put some pictures up later! I hope everyone has a fun and safe fourth of July!  Lots of Love,  Meagan :)