The Peachy Magnolia

It's been quite a crazy week! It all started Sunday when my little sister woke up struggling to breathe at about 3 in the morning. We already knew she had a cold, but we weren't expecting it to get that bad. At one point, her lips started turning blue so we immediately knew that she needed to go to the hospital. I had to be the one to sit in the backseat on the way there while my mom drove. Of course, I really didn't want to be the one to go to the hospital considering hospitals= sick people = a lot of vomit = an emetophobe's worst nightmare. However, I was way more worried about my little sister. It was so horrible to see her like that. I remember praying and holding her hand the entire ride there. It was definitely one of the scariest moments of my life.  Thankfully, there was no one in the waiting room so we got to go in the back immediately after arriving. She had a breathing treatment done so she seemed to be doing much better and we were actually getting r...

Okay...I'm just going to go ahead and warn you that this is going to be a very emotional post so beware! I'm posting this in honor of Suicide Prevention Week and I'm hoping to spread awareness on this issue. I have a feeling that people might not look at me the same after they read all of this, but this is a part of my life story and I want to give others hope. I saw something on Facebook and I decided to share it then suddenly it hit me like a ton of bricks. I remembered all of those times I thought about or even attempted suicide and I started to think about all of the reasons why I wanted to keep living. The number 1 reason why I kept living was just thinking about the aftermath. I didn't want my mom or older sister to come into my room and find my lifeless body. I didn't want my little sister or nephew to ask where their "May-May" was. I didn't want my friends and family to wonder what else they could have possibly done to prevent this from hap...

I've been going to church more often and I feel like I've a dramatic change in my life. My attitude is better and my anxiety and depression seem to have gotten a lot better also! I've been praying more and I've had a more positive outlook on life lately. I should, also, point out that I went to church completely by myself this past Wednesday! My cousins usually come with me, but they couldn't make it unfortunately. Of course, I could have changed my mind, but I was determined to show my anxiety who's boss! I'll admit that I was terrified at first, but then class started and I felt like a part of the group! :) Oh, and I would also like to mention that I ate! You see, having both anxiety and emetophobia is a really horrible combination because when I get nervous, I start to feel sick. Plus, I don't like eating in front of other people...It just makes me uncomfortable. So, you have no idea how awesome I felt afterwards. I knew if I could do it one time on...

School has started back and so far I've got nothing but A's and B's! I, also, have very strong feeling that I've found what I want to do as a career. My plan is to attend college and get a degree in business administration. I'm hoping from there that I can start my own business of some kind...maybe a bakery or something like that. This is the one idea that I've been the most comfortable with! So, please, wish me luck as I continue on my journey with school and life! I hate to end this post so early, but unfortunately I'm not feeling too well today. :( However, I'm really hoping that I can start posting more often and for you guys to get to know me better! So, if you have any appropriate questions for me like what my favorite color or food is, just comment your question and I will be happy to answer them!

For the past 3 years, I've been thinking about the same characters, setting, and plot for a story. I have started it over and over again, but I never felt like it was good enough so I gave up on it. Well, a couple days ago I decided to give it another try and I finally feel comfortable with it. I plan on finishing this story and (hopefully) getting it published. That is my goal for this year! Even though there's no guarantee that I'll get it published, it will be a great start just to get it finished. Okay, guys, wish me luck!

I haven't posted in a while because, you know, life lol. It's been a hectic couple of weeks. My anxiety has been somewhat under control while my depression has been really difficult to deal with lately. It's weird because usually it's the other way around. However, today has been the best day so far. Maybe I just needed to get some rest? I guess it doesn't at matter as long as I'm able to function throughout the day!  So, I've been doing things that I never thought I would be doing. First of all, I've been tweeting like crazy! I've tweeted to all of my favorite celebrities without going into a complete panic attack! I always told myself that I would never use Twitter because of my anxiety so I was going to delete it, but now I am so glad that I didn't. It's definitely helped me conquer my fear! Not only that, but I also went to a pool party with the church youth on Wednesday night and I had a ton of fun. Well, I never got in the pool most...

Florida was absolutely fantastic! The condo was nice and and it was so much fun to go swimming everyday! I got a fantastic tan and, unfortunately, a horrible sunburn, but that didn't ruin the fun! One day we went to the beach and I found 73 seashells. I think I've started a new collection!  I would love to collect as many seashells as I can from each beach I go to and keep them all in a little labeled bottle. That is definitely on my bucket list now! So, yes, I did have a lot of fun and I would love to back sometime soon! I hope you enjoyed reading about my vacation and I, also, hope that if anxiety is holding you back from doing something, please don't let it! Sure things might not go as planned, but that's how life is and anxiety won't change the outcome either way.  Lots of Love, Meagan :)